WHAT I DO BEST

Being a Scorpio is a curse and a blessing. People curse when they see me.

Thank you, try the veal.

But seriously, folks…if there’s one thing I do best, it’s overthink things. I have been trying REALLY HARD to control that and sometimes my brain plays tricks on me.

This past Thursday, I took my car to inspection. What do I do upon entering the inspection station? I OVERTHINK THINGS! “What if this fails?” and “What if I get someone who’s in a foul mood?” I passed though, and was even told by the guy who helped me that I have cool hair.

Glad I never cut it.

This morning I woke up with a very strange feeling in my head: “Will anyone care if I release a single soon?” and “With so many bands overestimating themselves, what chance does my new album stand?” And then I realized something: Mike and I worked damn hard on the songs, yet had the most fun we could recall in a long time. The songs will speak for themselves; no need for me to validate or qualify my work. The production is killer, clear as a bell. The music straddles fences but it’s still a heavy metal album. My guitar playing has elevated and improved tremendously.

So why am I beating myself up?

Thoughts of how ill-received ACT NATURAL was (and I blame myself for the overt lack of caring), I suddenly felt myself pulled backwards into this mind game. Granted, the teaser clip got some people asking me “When’s the new album?” and saying things like “Wow it sounds old school but current at the same time” definitely makes me feel warm and fuzzy. But ask any musician and they will tell you that externally they are proud but internally they are skeptical.

I don’t care if the cd sells out or sells slowly. I just hope people LIKE THE SONGS and the playing between myself and Mike. The hardest part about being a musician is getting people to listen.

I feel better now after typing this blog.

Time for chocolate!!